I had surgery on my foot 17 February 2012. I thought I was ready for the recovery. I wasn't. I had no idea how dependent I would be on others for even the simplest of things. As I sat with my foot propped up day after day for the first week, I realized that my Lenten journey was all about receiving alms. For me almsgiving has always been about what I was giving, never about what I was receiving. Yet this Lent I found that I was not only being called to receive, but to also ask.
Ask for what you need then wait for it to be brought to you. I have had to learn to not bombard people with my asking, and also wait patiently while they got what I wanted when they could.
Struggle? It sure is.
Are you willing to receive the alms someone has to give you or are you preoccupied with giving, ignoring the receiving?
I invite you to learn about the receiving of alms this Lenten Season.
Praise the Lord; you have learned to be still and wait. There is nothing more wonderful than waiting for God. I know this because I spoke with my mother about my prayer life and God not talking to me when I was about the age you are now. She said, "he talks to you all the time, you're just moving to fast to listen, stop rushing and pay attention to thoughts that pop into your head". I took her advice and learned life is, indeed, much better when it's lived at a slower pace. Love you much. Ma.
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