A Look Inside My Search

In a search for answers to the woes in my life, I found God. The truth that lies in knowing God for myself, placed me on a quest for peace. While on this journey, I have discovered that there are others seeking this truth also and that I can help. I have a Doctor of Ministry degree from Catholic Theological Union, not to rise above anyone, but to better serve everyone. I am on a journey towards peace, speaking truth that opens people up to God.

07 July 2016


“Now my soul is troubled. And what should I say—‘Father, save me from this hour’? No, it is for this reason that I have come to this hour. Father, glorify your name.” John 12:27-28a

The above text is my inspiration for my sermon this Sunday at Faith Community MB Church. This is a difficult text for me as I watch too many videos of police murders of Black people. These videos don't have actors in them. These videos are the eye witnesses to crimes perpetrated against Black bodies. These videos, recording crimes against Black people, water down the meaning of eye witness. When I was growing up, eye witness was important. It meant something. When someone stepped forward to say that they witnessed something action was taken based on their word. Now, with video proof, no action is taken. 

What the hell???!!!!

“Now my soul is troubled. And what should I say—‘Father, save me from this hour’? No, it is for this reason that I have come to this hour. Father, glorify your name.” John 12:27-28a

As a follower of Christ, I am looking at the reason I have come to this hour. What is my purpose now that my soul is troubled? What LORD? 

Glorifying God calls for all eye witnesses to God's goodness, grace and mercy to start praising God right now!!
Now, pressed down by our wanderings in the wilderness, we need to stand and PRAISE GOD!!! We need a rally that reawakens the HOLY SPIRIT within us, so that we can demand justice. We don't have time anymore for petty he said/she said things. Lives are being murdered and too many of us Christians are not raising God's praise. 

Eye Witness, if you know the glory of God in your life, WITNESS.

28 June 2016

Embracing Limits

I like to think of myself as a fixer. Not of objects, but people. Now surely I know that I can't "fix" anyone, but I like to think that by listening I offer paths that help people "fix" their situation.

But there are limits. Limits that I don't always want to embrace. I want to "fix"it. I know that experience is the best teacher, yet I still try to help people avoid the pain, the sadness, the heartache, the disappointment.

Fixers, at least this fixer, use storytelling to help them explain situations better. Don't you just love a good story? Don't you find it easy to sink right into the story?

Your story helps me find my way in my story. But there are limits.

Sometimes, no matter how many stories I tell, the person just doesn't understand what I'm saying. That's when I have to step back and embrace my limitations. That's when I see so clearly that God has marked out different steps.
                                        And it won't be me getting in the way of God's ordering!!
Where is your labyrinth taking you?

07 June 2016

The Messiness of Being a Christian

Some days I want to shout to the high heavens, "The Hell with It!!! Just stop already. Stop waiting for us to get it. Stop waiting for us to be better witnesses of Your Love. Can't you see how we're messing it all up? Can't you see that we continue to flounder. Just stop already. It's too much to deal with. Human relationship are a mess!!! Just bring on the end times won't You?"

Then a still small voice says "Hang on timone! Don't give up! Don't let go of Me! I AM here. Trust that I AM working it out for the GOOD."

And so, that's what I do. TRUST.

Each day as I encounter my mess and other people's mess, I trust the voice of God who says to me that ALL is being work out for GOOD.

Each day I must renew my strength.

Each day I must recommit myself to the Gospel.

Each day I must say YES to God's will and not my own.

Otherwise, the messiness of being a Christian closes in on me and I collapse.

May the peace that surpasses all understanding guide my heart and mind in Christ Jesus.

08 April 2016

Surrendering for PEACE

It has been quite some time since I've written anything on this blog. It's not that I forget, for I have a weekly reminder set for it. What has been interesting for me is that I haven't wanted to write. It seemed as though I didn't have any words. No those of you who have been reading my blog know that I don't seem to run short of words. Yet, when it came to the blog, I just didn't have anything to say.

I mentioned this to my spiritual director last month and she said I should explore that more and see what God is saying to me. If you've been to spiritual direction before, you know that her response was a good one, but .... Don't you just want them to tell you what it means sometimes?


Well I've been sitting in this non-writing space for quite some time and today, while in devotion I came across the word, surrender.

Surrender is usually connected to giving up.
Today, I'm seeing surrender as letting go.
Letting go

  • of the need to be in control
  • of the need to be right
  • of the search for the "right" answer
  • of the fear of being ME
  • of other people's impressions of me
  • of yesterday's misery
  • of dead/dying relationships
  • of my biases and prejudices
  • of any limited view of GOD

Then the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7

Oh, let us PRAISE!!! our God. Let us magnify God, as we SURRENDER for PEACE.

23 February 2016

Mindfulness and Lent

I am teaching a class this semester entitled, Mindfulness and Pastoral Care. As we have delved into the subject, students and teacher alike, began to discover some great benefits. Last week we sat with a mindfulness instructor to learn even more. What a great experience.

I have learned that my biggest block to mindfulness meditation is the inability to be gracious to myself. I realized that I spend too much time chastising myself about my improper techniques instead of just being aware.

Lent is a great time to practice mindfulness, the ability to be aware of one's surroundings, to be present to now. With the practice of prayer, almsgiving, and fasting, we're called to be present in ways that typically slip by us. Mindfulness and Lent have opened me to NOW in a new way; in a way that says it's okay to BE. Being helps center me for doing.

As I continue my mindfulness practices and walk with my students through theirs, I pray that we move away from our critical nature of finding fault and sit in the peacefulness of being.