A Look Inside My Search

In a search for answers to the woes in my life, I found God. The truth that lies in knowing God for myself, placed me on a quest for peace. While on this journey, I have discovered that there are others seeking this truth also and that I can help. I have a Doctor of Ministry degree from Catholic Theological Union, not to rise above anyone, but to better serve everyone. I am on a journey towards peace, speaking truth that opens people up to God.

29 November 2009

Giving to God

Why not give God all I have? What do I think I have to lose? What am I saving it for?
3 types of givers:
Do I give like everything comes from God? What is my sacrifice? How is my lack of trust getting in the way of my faith?

The above came from a sermon preached several weeks ago. Funny how it seems to be about the annual feast celebrated here in the U.S.

When I think about giving my all to God, I seem to suffer from some sort of stupidity. Let me explain. I am well aware that God knows all, forgives me when I ask, freely guides me, bestows upon me grace untold and unheard of, yet there I am, trying to keep some things from Him. You know those things I'm not proud of; those foolish mistakes; the things I did on purpose being vengeful and full of anger; those things that sought to destroy and not build up. Those things I try to keep from God. I dare not give God those things. Yet at the same time I know that to be fully whole, washed clean, I must turn these things over to God. Ugh!!! Anyone ever feel like this? You think that if you give your mess over to God, God will stop loving you? That's what I mean about suffering from some sort of stupidity. I just stated that I know God forgives and gives grace yet here am I trying to keep something from Her. Oh my, what a mess.

I'm learning to give EVERYTHING to God. And I'm finding a new way to live: in peace. I can't imagine what I was saving this garbage for. Oh how great I feel now that I give all to God.